Today i saw you doing the Accounting 260 assignment. I felt so noob bcz i cant help you =( and also i scare i'll misleading you. So, i choose not to teach you. I know that assignment gt abit tough for you, i know you are suffering, i can see it but i just dono how to help.. perhaps i just help you ask the answer from your friends? will i ruin you or should i let you do yourself? idk idk! i scare if i help more, i love you more, the more i love you, the more you dislike me, the more you dislike me, the more sorrow i am. Haih, i'm so selfish, im not going to help you bcz im dont want to get hurt.. the only thing i can do is.. saying Good Luck Sheryl.

P/S: Sorry, i was insane.. i uploaded your picture here.

I said this is should be our last photo. She felt very happy. She still avoiding me. Based on psychologist, her hand position is defending position which she felt unsecure when im beside her =(
I already tell her this is our last photo, but she still can't open herself, she still cant relax, she still cant take a perfect photo of us. She still cannot.. haih, are you really that not into me? i think i had repeated this questions alot of times =(
STOP! stop sorrowness, i must be happy, positive positive!!

P/S: Actually, i'm reluctant to say i give up in you.

The 28 days Magic

Today i start the 28 days the Magic! again, i hope i wont think about you anymore because thinking of you will make me sad only. I dont want to be sad for this 28 days... i hope i can do it! and Today, i peep your twitter, you only will update your feeling about him, not me. How sad could this be =(
STOP! -clear
Restart! Positive Thinking!

P/S: Day 1.

4个问题

我喜欢的那个人，能不能问你4个问题？
1。 有没有一瞬间，你上网是为了找我，让我陪你聊天？
2。 有没有那么一种感动，当你看到手机上有我发的短讯时，嘴角会有一丝满意的微笑？
3。 如果有一天我不再和你 联络 了，你是否会主动联络我吗？
4。 如果有一天，我彻底的在你的世界里消失，你会不会想起有我？

Gave Up!

The strong feeling from me to you,
You can never felt the feeling,
Cause you never look in me,
You never care about me,
perhaps, you just don't want to feel it,
I just wanted to make you feel my love,
or I'm not hardworking enough,
I decided, I surrender, I quit, I give up,
I had thinking of it for one night,
The saddest night i ever felt,
Tears drop for one whole night,
I hope i wont regret for this decision,
I GIVE UP in you,
but, I still INTO you,
Time flies faster than everything,
What left is only sorrowness in me.

P/S: The feeling after long house visit.

Lunch Dinner with HER

Today is so efficient day!
6.00am: Play Basketball
8.30am: Bathing
9.00am: Breakfast
10.00am: Calling to companies for sponsorship and Nap
1130am: Watch one episode of a drama. The sad scene just like me and HER =(
12.30pm : Lunch with HER and Ke Hui them~
1.30pm: Visited and Received a RM 1,000 cheque from Dai Lieng Sdn. Bhd.
2.30pm: Met Mavis's Dad (Village sdn bhd)
3.30pm: Visited and Received RM 200 cheque from Sartex Sdn. Bhd.
4.30pm: fb awhile
5.10pm: Go Erik house try to help him out in his assignment
5.30pm: Dinner with HER!
6.00pm: Go Byap house hangout
7.00pm: Meeting at campus
9.20pm: Reached home!
9.50pm: Writing my Blog and fb awhile more
1030pm: SLEEP! and stalk her twitter :p


P/S I: Haih! During Lunch and Dinner, its so happy yet SAD! I am happy cz i can eat together with HER, but, the way she treated me make me felt sad. Maybe she is playing with me =( or she is serious =(

P/S II: She still the same, whenever i ask her, the answer will always be same "Dont want".

P/S III: She asked me "Shut Up" =(( This is the most hurtful thing, Do you know how hurt am i when you said the words? can you please be gentle abit? for you, im fragile. If you are another girl, i wont be feeling sad, i can even counter her back. But, its you, i like you, i feel hurt and feel sad and i take it serious no matter what words as long as you spoke it. =(

P/S IV: I felt sad again when Ke Hui said what if i'll stay in Miri and kacau you. The first answer from you is that, you dont want me to stay =((((( can you please geh geh say you want me to stay? Do you know how much you mean to me? Do you know i will do whatever as long as i can be with you? Do you know i cant give up on you? Do you know? Do you know? =(((

P/S V: Do you really know that you mean alot to me? You little tiny action can actually affect my mood of the WHOLE DAY.

Her Twitter

Looking at her twitter, her emo status. It was a past time, please forget about him, he is not worth to be missed. I am so evil, ask you to give up on the one you love =(
She is still missing Him. Missing the one she shouldn't has to miss. Why you wanted to missing the one who are not worth to miss?
I think this question can be apply on me as well. Im missing her. Missing the one i shouldn't have to miss because i know she will never miss me. Why should i want to miss you? i really really into her. I like her until i can go crazy, i like her until i can scarify everything. I scare once you will never love me if i scarify everything. I scare you turn back to me. I scare you reject me again. I scare, I scare, I scare. I don't know what to do. =(

P/S: =(

Heart Broken Curtin Open Day ! =(((

Today is Curtin Open day, it should be a very happy day! =)
I am the Curtin Volunteer for this event. Early in the morning, i went to campus for preparation of the event. I also help out Jeen Hao's booth, this is a best from Jennifer,
Jennifer: Bruce, since you know so many other girls that are better then S, but why you still go for Sheryl?

Off course i dont want any other girls! i only want you! Sheryl! ONLY YOU!! SHERYL!! I ONLY LIKE YOU!! S.H.E.R.Y.L

Besides, we went to check our blood pressure and blood sugar. After i checked, i purposely dont show you my result, and hoping that you will ask for it. But, you never ask for it. You never care about me. Why am i still want to care about you? One sided love. =( ILY ILY
In the evening, i saw people playing the sand art, therefore i also went to have a look. And i saw one which the pattern is quite good one and the written words are "Great Work". In my mind, i was thinking that, she has work so hard for the whole day, so I am going to color the pattern and give it to her. You know what, this is the first time i do this, and and i dono how to combine the color. Hence, i just try my best to combine everything, but ended up with a bad result, so many ppl said it ulgy =(
But, nvm ba.. its from my heart! i just want to give you.

Perhaps the way i give it to you is a bit rude, but.. haih, I think you dint even keep it for 30seconds... i know the coloring is badly done, but.. why you straight away throw it? or leave it else where? =( 

sorry, i was expect too much because im the only one who is loving you, which you never did. Everytime when i meet you, i feel like our distance is getting farther away.... again. ILY ILY.

P/S: Do you know that when i notice that you dint keep this laoya bee paper, my heart was cracking, breaking, hurting. but... ILY ILY im such a failure, i fail to make you fall for me. im failure, im noob. =(

11th September

I dont give up, i gave you another call tonight it just very short one =(. But my mind went blank again when she answered the phone.. i dont know what to talk, perhaps some nonsense, haih =(
She said im noob, and she dont like noob =(
Hinting? =(((((( am i really that noob?
I felt the gap between us is getting bigger and bigger.. i wanted to smaller the gap but, everytime when i want to do that, i keep on feeling the gap is never getting small, its bigger instead. =(!

p/s: you really dont like me? or perhaps you can lie to me and say u like me? =(

10th September

I have no fate with you?
Morning- I wanted to look for you after your class, but you are not there when i reach SOB
Night- Its been a long time that i never call you, and i wanted to have some chit chat with you tonight, but, you are not free when i call you. =(
No Fate! So no fate!! =((((

P/S: No Fate? please... dont please..

IM TIRED!

P/S: IM TIRED!