Another fake smile day... After finish my last paper, i feel like a bit down because what i expected to come out in the exam, it didn't come out. =(
Erik, i really can feel your feeling.
I wish i could pass all units! and graduate! and get out of miri =(
I think, im tired of staying in miri, its leave too much memory to me. =(
I should treat all memory as good memory ba, bcz its keep us moving forward and improve ourselves.
After the last paper, we went to brunei for sushi. This is where my fake smile happen again, haih.. After the last paper, i feel like no mood for everything. But, in order not to show it out, i was pretended to be happy, walking around campus, ask for signature on my cloth, laugh, jumping, acting childish again. =(
Jong Ling was right, i was acting childish to cover all this kind of sad expression. =(
Just now i was return the car to Arizan, while waiting Arizan in the car.. i almost cant hold my tears, all the -ve stuff went into my mind again, but i scared Arizan will see it so i force to hold it! arghhhhh!!! wth am i doing!!! =(((
Now, im home. My sister slept.. tears, im going to say hi to you again. I cant hold myself to read your twitter again,and looking back to the photos of you and me. And its been about 28 days i tried not to miss you, but today i started to think about you.. haih... arghhhhh!!! why why why should i miss you? why? =(
Im just... feeling so down, its just so complicated, i don't know how to express myself... again. =(
I just need some chat, a listener maybe? =(

P/S: I'm gonna wear my smiling mask again..

P/S: Using Ice to prevent melting heart? is it meant you gonna treat him more cold? hmm... good idea =)

FINAL STUDENT DAY!

Tomorrow will me my last exam paper! Bless me! Afterward i will be graduated and work! =) Time Flies Like Speed Of Light!!! Blink an eye, three years have pass! We must live with no regret!

P/S: Time really pass by very fast, we must appreciate all the things that are presently around us. =)

Karen!! are you really going to Perth that fast? =( why dont you wait me go back kk first =(((
At least i can farewell with you.... T.T dont leave so fast plz plz plzzzz!!!

P/S: How can you leave earlier than me! please tell me you are lying!! =(

Ewwwwww!!!! Karen pian me!!!!! You made me feel sad for an hour!!! made me feel like the world is ending!!! i purposely book my flight ticket late late is bcz i want to ask you out de!!!!

Karen is Leaving! =(

Karen told me that she is leaving miri at 31st Oct to KL after that direct go to Perth for student transfer. After i know this, suddenly i felt so sad. Dont know why, im just feeling sad that she is leaving =(

Its so sudden that she said she is leaving.. =(

Im feeling sad all of the sudden. Karen!!! =(((

Wo Bu She De Ni Zou!!! =((((

P/S: Its good also that you transfer to Perth.

Today, Me Bryan Bong Albiie Ke Hui Ke Min and Jane Lau went to Sushi Bonanza again! and,  im so sad that i heard Jane Lau said Sheryl never fall in love with me.

CV dinner

Yesterday night, after the CV dinner, i can see that there are so many couple or possible couple.
1. Erik Kenneth and Chloe Cheng
2. Jeffrey Choo and Felicia Wong
3. Bryan Yap and Sharon Chia
4. KarKei and that unknown guy
5. Albert Marzuki and Whei Yi
6. Yi Qing and Wan Ying

And, me? Forever alone? i hate that feeling. Is there anyone falling in love with me? =(
Maybe im too weak for everything. Even thought i bring along Chai Wan Ying to the dinner, but i din't know how, what to do, we din't talk much. I am not good in everything, I am not good in talking, im not good in cracking jokes, im not good in communicating, im just... the worse people in the world

I found out that i'm indeed very weak in everything. What do i have? What i got? What make me so outstanding? What can i do to to improve myself, how?  These questions keep on playing in my mind the whole night, i can't figure out the answer. Perhaps, there is no answer in me. All these questions can even make my tears fall again. I promised myself not to cry but at least for these 28 days, i failed. I cried, my tears just can't hold and its finally fall.
I am just too weak for everything. Lousy in study, poor in communication and English  weak in going after the one i love,  i have no common sense, i am slow learner etc.

P/S: I think i really need someone to comfort me.

Is this indirect reject me again?

P/S: Went to Jane Lau's hse dinner with Sheryl