Wednesday, 30th May 2012

I found this quote quite true.. How HOw HOW! =S

P/S: Should i give up? Once i gave up... everything will turn into nothing...

Study Week!

Its study week now, the Final Exam will be held after this week!! and now im just started revise the second chapter of one of the four units... O.O 

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p/s: Scary! 

A strong man might come from a strong mental
   A strong mental might come from a strong spirit
      A strong spirit might come from a strong soul
         A strong soul might come from a strong body
A strong body not necessary come from a strong heart
   A soft heart can be hurt easily that change the person's world
      A world is now dull, everything seems to be meaningless
         A person will disappear in no time if not being appreciated

Happy day

Today is a happy day! Today there was a interview for those who want to join the KL industries visit. And S is joining, therefore, she have to be interviewed at around 1pm. But unfortunately, i got class from 12-3pm! I dont care about class, i attend the class for the 1st hour and after that i skip.. haha~ this is the final study week already, final chance to meet her! and this is the precious opportunity to see her being interview. :) hehe, i got curi2 capture a few photo of it :P

After the interview, i accompany her to walk to her car as she wanted to change her high heel. During the journey to the car, i meet so many friends and keep on say 'hi'. I hope all of them misunderstand that she is my gf =X  haha! but the truth is sad.. haihzzz =(. However, im happy :) Its so good if the time can stop at this moment..

After she changed her heel, i friend her back to library. Next, Ke Hui and her friends are going to have a presentation in the afternoon, so, i being along Bryan's laptop and find any empty LTCL classroom for them to rehearsal. after rehearsal, i friend them to their class. She and S are same class...so, i got curi2 peep S as well XD OMG! im just like the secondary school student! this is the thing that we missed out during secondary school! HAHA!

I wait her outside until she finish her class :) after that i take photo with her :)))) After that i go to library and study together with Ke hui and SY. 630pm i got another class again, after that i continue do my revision at library, but the revision is not very efficient, exam coming soon~~~ cham gou!

At night, had dinner with BRyan and SY at mee stall. 

GOOD NIGHT! 

p/s x2: Good night S!!! :))))))

Music Workshop!

1.       I wake up with happiness as im going to a music workshop with Bryan, Bing yu, Lemon and Brian. And there is a super band come from Philipine! Named Juwita Suwito! 

2.       I had an accounting club meeting before the music workshop.

3.       After that I went to the music workshop,  Juwita taught us the vocals. And I learnt the way to breath, make sound with tones.

4.      I enjoy the jamming session. I was surprise that Im actually enjoying it! I never knew that its so funny to see a live band. I fall in love with the band!

5.      I can actually feel the feeling of the music.

6.       Im truly grateful that the RM35 ticket is very worth it.

7.       At night, We went to the mini concert at miri golf club. Its held by the music club as well. And the performers are Juwita Suwito’s band, music club’s committee and so on.

8.       Im really grateful that I got the chance to enjoy the live band! Its really like a concert!

9.       And we actually share some little secrets among our friends. Hehe^^

10.   Im very grateful that I can even take photo together with Juwita Suwito and the band’s players! 

After the mini concert, we take bus back to Senadin. Otw back to senadin, Sam Tze Mun 

mentioned that she made a new friend whose name is S. Im so excited to know more about it!!! Then i keep on spam questions to Sam, hahaha.. so Happy to know about her stories :) ARGH! 

based on Sam, S carried two Big barrel! S is so 辛苦~ i wish i was there to help her! If i knew it, i rather sacrifice my music workshop! :)

1. Today morning, there is one more music workshop again, where the performers tell us their background and why they actually come into the music field. At night, I had dinner with Bryan, Bing Yu and the Big Gang(Chloe, Easter, Natalie, Clement)! hahaha unexpected bing yu will bring so many ppl, but its good :)

Hahah, i htink i got abit over buly Natalie~ im going to say sorry here!! SORRY NATALIE! i know i dint tell you my blog, but at least it shows that im guilty that i bully you.. hahaha 

And Bing yu, Lemon! Jia You in your upcoming interview! Dont emo so much liao~~ :)) cheers!

P/S: Dear Curtin friends, Dont Spread my blog to Curtin Friend!! :)))))))

Juwita Suwito's band!

Another band.

Juwita Suwito!! WOOO WOOO!

Happy day x2

Yes! today i had a super fun badminton match with S! wooohooo! its too happy, its can neither describe in words nor picture XD
She treated me as normal friend, and i think, its hard for me to go after her already =/
Its just like the case below, Im 犯贱! 為甚麼要愛一個不愛自己的人? (Why should i like a person that she don't like me?)

Happy day!

Today im so happy. i met her, we talk, just like normal friend :)))
And tomorrow im going to play badminton with her :)))))
I hope everything will going smoothly :)))))
i got one question, is it possible that i chase her again? or should i give up and just maintain as normal friend?
both options make me crazy, moreover, i still dont want to give up on her!

11th May :'(

Actually i dont want to disclose that i had made my first confession to a girl. But after i watch a movie named

《夏日乐悠悠》 Love You You (2011) 

its make me feel like writing it out in the blog to release the misery in me. 11th May i borrow my Arizan's car at night and go the S house for confession. Before the confession, i had a bad feeling that my confession will fail because i think its not the time to confess, however, i dont belive my feeling. Even though i know that most probably i'll fail but never try never know, if i try maybe i have 1% of success :(

After i reach her house, i park my car somewhere away but near her house. I want to call her to make sure she is at home and ask her to come down stair, but...there is something unpleasant happened. the phone line is so bad that i cant reach her. i called her so many times...i think around 20 times, Finally i can get through her. Then i talk with her normally. And i make sure that she at home. After that i hang up. Then, i use the candles to make " I <3 U" but the wind is keep on blowing off most of the candles. After everything done, i call her again, i ask her to come out her house, in the mean time, i saw her mom and her sister coming back home. A moment later, i saw her, she finally come out from her house. and finally we met. 

Im nervous. i directly tell her my purpose. When she saw the candles "I <3 U" , she ask me to keep it. At that time, im heart cracked the most, its hopeless. Everything is DOOM! IM SO SAD! The answer she gave me was, just to be normal friend... The moment i heard it..i wanted to cry but i just cant cry out.. its suffer inside..

After finish talking, she go back to her house, and my tears directly fall from my eye at the moment she leave me.

i cry all the way back to my house. I never know that im that weak. These few nights, just before i slept, i picture the scene again, and my tears come out form my eye, i cant stand with it.. :'(

Yesterday (Sunday) i went out with Bing yu, Chloe, eve, boon, sj, belle, kai wen, wei chong they all. During lunch, when i heard Eve said, if a girl reject a guy by saying "just want to be friend" its meant that the girl never love that guy :'( and she also said that, usually the guy will misunderstand that the girl is giving the opportunity to the guy...but, its not. Indirectly, its mean that S really dont love me.. =(

S! i always look for you and thicken my face to find you in campus! do you think im that strong? Now only i realize that im so weak.. im.. so.. weak.. im so weak... one rejection can make me so emo, crying at night... 

Now, im with the fake smile in campus, fake laugh, to cover my emo-ness, i hope i can have my real smile very soon.. ='(

Im suffer! but at least i tell her my heart's feeling.. its make me feel good and also sad at the same time. im not regret what i done, but im just sad..

p/s: i hope my next post wont be emo.. ='(
      i felt abit better after i wrote my feeling

THE TIME HAS COME!

THE TIME HAS COME! DEAD OR ALIVE!

C NIGHT!

Tonight will be Dead or Alive! im scare, suk.. cham! i must not scare at this moment! my feeling now is happy and excited. At the same time, i got abit -ve minded.. Bless me!!! ALL THE BEST! there's something BIG tonight!!!! the time is APPROACHING!

P/S: I LIKE YOU! ALOT!

ONE DAY LEFT!

Time flies! tomorrow is the DUE DATE! im so nervous, scare, suk, and many more (-ve sign) arrrrr.... okay, lets skip this part first.

Today, when i woke up, my heart beating really fast, i can sense it. Im nervous. Its take a few mins to clam myself down. Im not sure why im nervous but i think its bcz of presentation or tmr's Secret Event ba XD. by the way, i got a presentation today,and i think we did it quite well, we presented pro-ly~ hahaha.... we keep on rehearsal for the whole day. nothing much about today. just that im worry about tmr...

P/S: ITS TOMORROW! IM SCARE LA BOSS!

More cham liao!! die die die

Today i went to campus early in the morning as i need to renew my student visa, pass something to R and hand in a form to a lecturer. The time i reached campus, i saw S's friends, this tell me that she just finished her class! yay~ its time to meet her again~~ but, after i met her, of course im with a big smile :D and ask where is she going, then she replied " the place that without you" .... :((((( but im still maintaining my big smile and talk abit nonsense. after that i pretend to go toilet and refill my bottle. :((((((((( from a big smile to D: im think she was kidding but still im sad :(((((((
After i refilled my water, then i saw R and i pass that thing to the R. R is a girl, therefore, i pretend to talk alot with her because i wanted to make S jealous! after i finish talk then i noticed that S is gone...haha, :((((( and i go ahead with the thing that i have to do. After i dont everything, then i call S and ask where is she. She said she is now at library and its full, implying me not to come :((((((((( i was so SAD to the max!!! maybe she was kidding again.....and i hope she was...
After the call, im just like....walking around the campus without direction... i saw Xue Shan taking care of a donation booth at LT foyer. i joint her and of course donated some money. After awhile i saw Erik, and i sit with Erik at another table. Had some chit chat and i saw S's friends, SY and Ke Hui. So, we all sit together and jia jia chit chat again. After a little while, Erik left and i follow S's friends to library and hoping that i can see her~ but unluckily i dont. At around 12pm, they all got class.. so, i jia jia send S's friends to the class in order to make S jealous again! haha...but im not sure if it work, but i just did that. I saw her inside the class, i just wave my hand and say bye to her... after that i peep xia peep xia her XP the feeling is just Happy and Sad!
I took 1220 bus back to Senadin, lunch with Bong and his gf. after that presetation group meeting...the stress is coming, during the meeting, Bryan posted something on S's wall... after finish meeting, its alerady dinner time.. i eat abit, no appetite..
And at 10pm like that, i saw her online in fb, i commented the post that posted by Bryan and find her chatting, she replied me very cold :((((((
Now, im writting my script and prepare for the presentation~ wooohooo~~~



P/S: The time is approachingggg!!!! Feeling hopeless :c

Happy Tuesday?

Today i met her alot of times and had lunch dinner together. Im suppose to be happy but, she just like not really care about me :( im not sure you just kidding or serious one :( but, i  feel that you dont care about me so much. Haih, and not really pay attention to what i talking about. During dinner time more cham, you just focus on playing game...=C im just sad. And i pretend nothing happen, so i just mingle with your other friend  =((( And i did observe you from time to time, but what i observed is that, haihzz.. i dono how to say, i can simplified by saying im not important to you. =(((((

p/s: The time is coming! is it a good thing? haihhzzz..... =CCCC

Child Negligence Awareness Campaign!

Today is this campaign! and today i saw her again! :)))) but, still....i dont manage to talk much with her. i don't know how to go deep into the conversation. Therefore, its always end up with sending her to her car and see her drive away. Arrr.. the feeling is like happy and sad. Happy because i can talk to her. Sad is because i always noob in talking! haihzz... how to improve??? :(((( How to see whether she got a bit like me or not?? :(
I feel like i want to know the answer so desperately.. but sometimes i feel like dont want to know because i scare i will get the negative answer :(((( haihz, contradict!

However, i want to sing! i nak nyanyi! but with the current noob voice, hard to improve leh :( i cant feel the tone when im singing. im slow learner, im low iQ, im noob, im sozai, im dark, im ulgy. haihzz... damn, negative minded now :(((

p/s: The Day is Coming!

Labour day!

Lets talk about yesterday sin, yesterday was a good day. We did our video recording for the Presentation today, its fantastic, haha. We do it at library, and thanks for Brian Foong! for helping and also to Lemon Tea~ and Chloe~ really thanks alot, without you guys, i also dono how are we going to record. and after record and thanks for helping us to edit the video! appreciate it alot! terima kasih! thank you! and during night time, after i get my bike from lemon, then cycle back home lo, whose know, my bike's pedal loosen and the whole pedal fall on to the floor...hahahaha, i was like O.O hahaha
Well, today afternoon we just shown the video during the tutorial. hahah,  firstly we show the serious presentation to the class. afterward we play the "the making of" video. hahha, laugh die them. after that i went home and sleep until 740pm! i slept about 4 hours! darn! long nap again! OMG! i found out that i always take longggg nap. haihzzz...cham, how to cure this problem? its time wasting leh, and now 10.40, i already felt sleepy again, Wa Ba Kun Chiiiiii. hahaha, good night. tomorrow i have a midterm, gonna jia jia study liao, buai~